Should I pick Arts Or Science? I feel so confused.
Qualifications
10th 72.80%.
I am 17 years old. And I gave my 10th board exam when I was 15 almost 2 years ago in 2025. I took a gap year after that because I was severely ill, mentally. During the covid-19 quarantine, i skipped most of 5th grade and all of 6th and 7th grade. I appeared in 8th but I barely ever went because of mental issues (anxiety and some personality disorders)
In 9th i barely really studied again, same issues. In 10th I felt a little bit more pressure and so I decided I'll be a little bit more serious about this but i genuinely wasn't able to study at all until the exams actually started. I scored 49/100 in science and 35/100 in math. I only got 72 because of the best five subjects rule in cbse. I have never studied fractions. Algebra. Geometry. You could ask me the easiest questions. Like. 273 ÷ 21 and i wouldn't be able to answer it.. it's not really a problem with intelligence? I can remember things very well and i scored pretty damn well in other subjects like English, sst, IT like all of em were over 80.
The problem is I never really got to study science or math ever. And because of that, i don't understand it at all! And since I can't understand it much, i don't like it since I can't really solve anything. But i absolutely love the subjects in arts/humanities. History? My favourite subject ever! Geography? I have most of the countries memorized! Politics? Love it too! Psychology? Probably even better than history. I love psychology.
Now don't get me wrong, i love science. I think it's badass, amazing, fun, and interesting. And in 10th when I was able to solve some of the science/math stuff i thought it was extremely fun. But again, I am more interested in writing paragraphs upon paragraphs on things. But again, i love science and like the JOBS and career options in science. Like. Psychology, psychiatry, surgery, forensic science, pharmaceutical sciences, and stability. Because if you just studied properly and consistently for a few years and worked hard you're set! Yet with arts you can't really do much with it. Sure, you can do law, psychology, probably upsc. Etc.
I am so confused. What should I even take? And idc about like the scope in India since I am gonna be hopefully getting out of this fuckass country! And I'll contain my urge to write a paragraph on why I hate it. Anyways.
For the past 2 years I was like "I'll take science." And now when it's time to actually get into 11th grade I'm terrified. And the fact that if I didn't take the gap year I would've made this decision last year at the age of sixteen! Now imagine how it would've been in a country that's not india or china. You DON'T have to make a big decision until you're like 17! And even then you're not locked into certain subjects..god. help me!! I know if I studied the basics that I missed from 5th grade to 10th alongside studying the 11th subject.(Pcb+psychology) I could most probably get back on track by the end of 11th but again.. do I really want to do this?. actually why am I even stressing.. i can just switch after 12th if I don't like it. No. Yes?