u/Ill_Good2974

I broke after 21 days without smoking a single cigarette.

Last night I didn’t even have a strong craving, but there was this weird determination inside me that I was going to smoke no matter what. I was wearing a nicotine patch and still somehow I found myself walking to the store almost on autopilot. I bought a pack, smoked 4 cigarettes, broke the rest, snapped the lighter in half, brushed my teeth and went to sleep.

Honestly, I didn’t feel like a failure. I felt grateful that I avoided around 500 cigarettes over the past few weeks. I told myself: you’re still moving in the right direction.

This morning I woke up, put on the patch, went to work… and on the way I bought another pack, took the patch off, and now I’m smoking again.

I still haven’t reset my quit app counter to zero. I’m planning to log every cigarette I smoke today. I’m also going to sign up for the gym today as punishment for my mistake 😂

But deep down I feel done with this garbage.

I just wanted to share this because strangely I still feel positive. 20 cigarettes a day is an insane number. I don’t think I’ll ever go back to that, no matter how many times I fail now or in the future. Eventually, I’m going to quit for good.🚀😎👌

Day 19 smokefree and I honestly hate this feeling that I’m going to relapse eventually
It feels like the shadow of relapse is constantly following me around

Something I’ve started noticing I’ve been a smoker for 5 years and before this my longest quit attempt was only 10 days using nicotine patches now I’m on day 19 and weirdly… the process itself feels easier than I expected But mentally it feels like a huge battle

I still get cravings, but when I really sit with them and analyze them I think a big part of the craving is actually fear. Fear that I’ll relapse someday anyway. My brain almost seems to be using a defensive strategy “Better to relapse now rather than relapse after 3 m or 1 year”

It’s such a strange thing almost like I’m scared of succeeding long term Like my mind can’t fully trust this yet.

Does anyone else relate to this? The brain plays some seriously weird psychological games 😂

I haven’t relapsed — I’m asking to avoid it.

For those using quit-smoking apps like Smoke Free:
If a slip happens (like one cigarette), do you reset your streak to zero or keep going?

Do you see resetting as honesty and discipline, or does it hurt motivation more than it helps?

I’m trying to set clear rules for myself before anything happens. What works best for you, and why?

i am on my day 5 now, my best was 10 days 🎯 i am using a nicotine patch. i have been smoking for 5 years now, i started late at 26 but i developed this addiction. i smoke 20 cigarettes every day for the last 3 years

my question is: when the craving goes, will i forget about cigarettes, or is it just a curse that stays with you once you learn it? 🤔