My 5 year old cat passed suddenly from congestive heart failure and i feel like its my fault
my 5 year old cat was diagnosed with CHF 2 1/2 weeks ago when he suddenly became lethargic. he spent 2 days in the ER’s extensive care unit but he pulled through. he was put on 2 heart medications 2x daily and got an echocardiogram a week later that showed a nearly full recovery. his cardiologist believed he could be the first transient case she’d ever seen. we continued his medications and he was fully back to his normal goofy/derpy self. my fiance and i both spent a day away from home (maybe 8 hours total) and when we came home he was in extreme respiratory distress. we rushed him to the ER but there wasn’t much else that could be done since he wasnt responding to any medications and was in a significant amount of pain. we decided to consider his quality of life and end his suffering with euthanasia. his euthanasia was extremely traumatic, i believe there was some serious negligence there and he was in pain during it.
if i hadnt left him at home alone all day this never would have happened. i should have done better. and i feel like he paid for my mistake with a painful death. he deserved so much more and so much better. i do not know how to handle all of this grief and guilt.