I'm 17 years old. I fell asleep at school during recess today, and it turned into an endless hell. I've had this dream 20 times already, but usually I only saw pieces. This time I got into a loop ("regression") and lived there for about 200 days. I'm writing this with trembling hands because I'm afraid reality is just another circle.
Village and football:
It all started when my mom woke me up: "Get up, we're going to visit Grandma in the village." We went together. When we got there, she immediately kicked me out for a walk. I met a group of guys who acted like we were old friends. When I asked in disbelief: "Who are you anyway, how do you know me?", they started getting angry and repeating, "What kind of stupid questions are you asking?". They literally grabbed my hands and dragged me to play soccer. I was a striker. Then there was a sharp dip, as if I had fallen asleep right during the game. I wake up and I'm already at the gate. There are 20 balls around me. Although in the beginning there was only one. My team started yelling at me, surrounded me, and a fight started. I went home to my grandmother in wild stress.
The house and the doll child:
At home, the mother is in a panic, running around, looking for something. She saw me, put the baby in my arms, and screamed.: "Where's the baby?! Find him!" and ran to look for more. I look at the one I'm holding, and it gives me the creeps. His face is strange, lifeless, like a plastic mask, but with eyes. I realized that this was some kind of substitution, and with all my strength I threw this creature to the ground. The mother slapped me in the face, I turned around — and the same child was sitting on the chair again, unharmed. She just took it and left as if nothing had happened.
Entrance and 13th floor:
I blinked and I was already sitting with the boys, we were playing Uno. It was wildly hot and sweating profusely. The condition was: whoever loses, goes home to get water. One kid lost, left, and disappeared. We went to look for him. We enter the entrance and instantly find ourselves on the 13th floor. I was totally fucked up, I started telling the guys that it was impossible, but they looked at me like I was crazy.: "What are you talking about, are you fucked?" We abruptly moved to the 1st floor and entered the elevator. Suddenly there was one more of us — some kind of lefty in the corner. On the 5th floor, he said, "The elevator is about to break down." We didn't even see who was talking. The elevator is really stuck. One of the boys knocked out the trapdoor in the ceiling, we somehow miraculously got out, jumped into the next elevator and reached the 13th floor again.
The endless staircase:
And that's where the real nightmare began. On the 13th floor, all the doors disappeared. Just concrete walls. The elevator was gone. Only the stairs down remained. We started to descend, but the floors didn't end. There were no longer 13 of them, but 100, 200... There were people standing on every platform and just looking at us. When I lost my temper and started jumping down through the aisles to make it end faster, they all started to smile eerily, unnaturally.
My watch rang in my pocket. On the screen: "You'll be in this hell until you walk through the door." The watch turned into glass, I looked through it — and there was fire everywhere, fire, mountains of bodies. One door appeared. I shouted at everyone, "Don't come out!" but one kid came out anyway and was torn to pieces in front of my eyes. After that, we all died.
Regression (200 days):
I "respawned" back to the entrance, to the beginning of the Uno game. No one remembered anything except me. But I knew that the door would disappear anyway, and the elevator would break down. It happened over and over again. I've lived in this loop about 200 times. It felt like 200 real days. My psyche just burned out. I knew every word, every move. At some point, I couldn't stand this endless circle anymore. As soon as we went outside again, I just slit my wrists. Not out of grief, but to "hack" this system with a shock. It was only after that that I was able to wake up.
Now I'm afraid to enter the entrances alone. I'm afraid that if I see some kind of "glitch" in reality, I'll decide that I'm back in the loop and do the same thing here. Has anyone encountered this? How do I return to the real world after six months in hell?