I read a few posts and most people specified their eyes are closed and they only see a dream replica of their room? What?
I just see everything as it is and my eyes are 100% open, even the lighting is the exact same
While I didn't take hours to beat it this boss is literally lace 2 on steroids and 500 mixed patterns, its rough and nobody mentions how much u have to lock in without any tools, probably the roughest boss for me so far
I usually only sleep when it’s light outside 99% of the time but exceptions can happen and.. that’s literally the only time I hallucinate… why?
Can do absolutely anything during the day but no matter how much I panic or try to inflict something there’s nothing happening, only for like some special cases here and there. Last night I had an example: I kept seeing some hands walking around and when I close my eyes I feel something kept trying to shove and hit me as if it wanted me to witness, then I reopen my eyes and see a hand walking with a knife.. then I close my eyes again and feel stabs on my own hands. I wasn’t even panicked just very uncomfortable.
Might not sound that crazy at first but these hallucinations are so well coordinated from auditory to visually that it almost feels like i’m dreaming. Whenever I hallucinated during the day it was very surface level stuff like either 2d spiders or just hearing some random gibberish and maybe some random pain, and these are like 1/20 times when I sleep during the day and not even all together at once. When I sleep at night? I’m a horror movie protagonist.
Is there any science behind this cuz it’s not like I expect it to happen or get too scared, I barely process what happened after I wake up.
Why does nobody talk about the shitty tiredness sleep paralysis gives you afterwards that doesn’t disappear until you fall asleep again which is literally impossible cuz it literally repeats itself over and over again unless I wait for the next day. Any ways I can remove this horrible disease sensation without going back to sleep?
First off I gotta say waking up has to be the hardest part of the day to me, it's probably how zombies in movies feel when they rise from their grave. Everything just hurts like i'm rotting on the inside and it takes so many attempts of counting to 10 before I actually find a window where i'm not too "lazy" enough to do it, it's just exhausting and not worth the payoff.
The only part of the day I look forward to is drinking my monster energy drink at the start of the day even thought it doesn't give me the caffeine benefits, I just really enjoy the refreshing taste. 30 mins later is when I start to feel miserable, my eyes become blurry and have to really struggle to hold focus on what's happening on the screen and I just doze off and daydream. I feel like i'm dragging through mucus to do any simple task.
Also, my chest becomes "waterish" and I get hit with a sense of sorrow that completely kills my mood to do anything I enjoy, my posture becomes hard to keep up and I feel my neck tilting very slightly to the side involuntarily and overall yawn a fuck ton and can't focus on anything. After half of the day my body switches into some "overclocked" state and everything feels like it's on fire instead of being too groggy. My eyes burn, my forehead burns, my ears burn, my chest feels uneasy and I feel more angry.
All I can think of at this point is when I can go to sleep to restart my body decaying process but guess what, the only time i'm not sleepy is when I get in bed, ideas about what i'm gonna do the next day start flowing in my brain giving me a bit of dopamine (only the idea of doing stuff brings me joy) and I can't rest. I feel like when I stay in bed with my eyes closed it's like I forget how tired I am so that gives me motivation to try things.
I wasn't always like this, for 5-6 years it got this bad, i'd have around 8-9 hours of feeling good before my body would start to feel sleepy. I'd have this state where when my chest would become warm and tingly everything would just feel good for no reason, music would sound pleasant instant of screeching my ears like it does now, I could focus on anything i'd like to do, and i'd just feel content way easier. The thing is that I still get this state of mind sometimes but only for 20 minutes maximum per week or something. A bit easier to inflict it if I overdose on caffeine but it's not worth it.
On a last note I want to mention that I also started getting sleep paralysis 5-6 years ago and it never left since then, I don't know what's the correlation though.. so.. should I actually bother to get tested in your eyes or does this just sound like what untreated ADHD can do to you or just bad sleeping habits? I don't really have a schedule tbh but I do sleep 8-11 hours