This is a repost that I'm editing because my previous post was taken down for breaking a rule that It didn't actually break.
So, I was asking about what love is like in that post, so now I'm gonna ask.
How did you all find love, what was your indicators, when did it happen, was it certain events that lead to it or random chance.
Please, this is valuable information for me as I'm unsure how to find love.
I've been wondering about this my entire life as I've never really felt any love at all, after highschool that is. I did feel a sort of love for a girl throughout highschool even though we never dated.
Now, I'm someone who has never even gone on a date with a girl because I just don't know if I have the means to develop feeling for her or love.
So I ask all of you who have had love. What are the indicators, what does love do, what's it about.
I'm not sure how to think of love.
Please help me understand it in any way you possibly can. Much appreciated to anyone who comments.
So for context, I am a bisexual guy, I've known about it for years now and honestly it's been hard keeping this secret from my family. My family are very loving and have always been supportive of what I do and want to do but above all, they are Christians who don't accept people like me.
I do not know if telling them I'm bisexual is something I should do. I've run every scenario in my head and it all leads to unnecessary conflict, it leads to me losing my family over something as stupid as me being fucking gay.
I'm jobless, I don't live on my own, I live with my parents, my sister and her boyfriend. I don't have an income, I'm relying on my parents, I'm stuck at home, I can't go anywhere without them, I can't go out with friends without causing suspicion, I'm introverted and never do that, even though I want to now. Being bisexual isnt the only thing too, I'm also a femboy at heart and want to express myself fully.
I'm 26 years old and I'm just lost, I feel like being bisexual is a curse and I don't see any benefit to me with coming out. I can't lose my family just because I'm against their Christian values and the religion in its entirety. It would be fucked up of me to start conflict and in the process hurt both them and myself.
I have no idea what to do, what to think or if I should do anything at all. Am I overthinking? Is my brain the problem. I just don't know.