Apologies for the melodramatic title, but it felt appropriate.
I'm almost at the end of my second year and have genuinely never been less motivated than I've been for the last few weeks. I can't even say it's burnout because this feeling has been pretty consistent for a few months now, so logically I?? Should have recovered?? Who knows.
My attention span is shot. My screen time on things like TikTok and Reels is pretty average, maybe 2 hours per day with the two combined? I don't use AI so I can't even say it's AI brainrot. But every time I sit down to start an assignment I feel physical discomfort and mental blocks that just freeze me for a while. I thought it might be something to do with some personal circumstances I've been going through, but those have abated by this point, so I can't find the logic in why I'm still being like this and it's so frustrating.
I have never been the best at just sitting down and getting things done, even a blank wall would catch my interest but I would still get things done,, eventually. My grades were good in secondary and sixth form, they're pretty average nowadays(usually mid 2:1's) so I wanna say that it's not an intelligence issue, but at this point not even I know.
I'm not really looking for advice or comfort, I just need to throw this somewhere because it feels like I'm going to explode. Talking with my parents and friends is helpful but it gets to a point where you start thinking they must be sick of hearing about this and you start feeling bad.