u/Idk_who_I_am17181920

For me i sometimes write too much that i start smelling the ink, and it always leaks to my hands and i just write with an intence force, what about you?

Hello! Im a 17 F and i want to share my experience with this i may say realisation bc i have a hard and important school year and i cant let this idea takes over my brain and provide me from focusing:

So i was thinking about autism soo much and the possibility of being in the spectrum since i knew talking at 3 yo is a possible trait (i was comunicating with mouvement until i became almos 3yo, but my mom explain it with the fact that i was the only child and i start talking bc i stayed with grandma) i did some researchers and i was like "i cant be autistic i dont have sensory issues" but i remembered i hate how the peach skin feels in my tongue or how my head hurts whene i smeel that spesific food rich with spice or how uncomfortable nail grinding is or how i feel sick and almos wanting to thr.ow up whene hearing high mudic from a microphone (i still love it from my phone but microphones makes me sick) and i feel tired whene my hair is close to my face or whene its volumed, but it feels like a lot of NT folks feels the same.

I also used to say "hello!: 3" to everyone in the street ( i mean EVERY ONE) and acted like a princess (i have a familly photo where i was posing like theme, and it feels real back thene) i had been puting myself in a story and act upon it, like eachtime i come back from granda to home i act like a character in a game that had just been complited thene i go to the miror and imagine being an avatar and the player is editing me(as a child, ofc i dont do that now) or imagine fics and they are always the same (now i still imagine stuffs while walking in cicles but my mom always complane about it, like i shouldnt keep walking in her kitchen, i do make senarios of my stories or fic for my fav shows and repeat lines or reimagine an event that i loved at the time, sometimes its outloud and sometimes its internal) i watch vedios of different topics, eachtime i get obsessed with something untill i found something eles to love, i stare a t someones eyes constetly and dont move theme on, and sometimes i dont, i just feel like i should look at a specific spot and find in uncomfortable to look away, i once cried as a 12yo bc i got the idea of making my story a film (like its not real and theya re just acting, but im not dramatic like that anymore) and in this year i was trying to stick in a program but couldnt follow it, i got distracted easly and i forget stuffs like drinking qather or what to say and i once got a gift from a friend (a dora eraser) at the age of 6,i didnt understand, i thought i stolen it and i thrown it from the window (sorry enverenment).

But it all feels like its not enough, like i got convaince that it worth seeking a doctor but thene i watch someones video and be like "i dont suffer that much" the fact that i just recalled these infos whene i thought of this possibility make it feels like i wasnt strugling before...

Im not here to seek a diagnose of cours! I just shared tit so now i can think of more inportant things, if u want to share ur experience feel free to write as much as u want, oh and btw sorry i talked o lot.

Hello everyone! Im 17F, i used to be an A+ student (tbh i was bad at the first years of elementary school until there was a teacher who helps me study, and also in 6th and 7th grade bc quarantine give me more freedom to play) but now im into a very important year in my career, and... Idk what happened i just dont want to study, i feel like i burned out and i stim more this year, sometimes i just cant study at all EVEN THOUGHT I LOVE THE SUBJECT, but my urge to jump is very hight, i also think obligation RUINED math for mei used to like it but now, and with just one month before the last exam, i just cant handel not knowing the unswer, i used to stick into the equation until i find it, but now i just think of the dispointed father and my big dream that will never become true, i should be optimistic so lets say it will happen istg:), anyways i just want to pass and eachtime i want to THINK deeply about math or physics i just know its not the time for it and its not going to help my HORRIBLE grades, and its ONE MONTH before the test and idk what to do...

Idc about the label,burn out or ADHD or whatever, just tell me how did yall get out of this mess