u/IdealHistorical1728

(Sorry if this is all over the place, im not the best at conveying how I feel about this) My (19f) girlfriend and I (19f) have been talking about our wedding alot recently. I know we are young, but ive known she is my person since we were 13. Talking about weddings and getting married should be a happy and exiting thing, possibly even stressful once you start getting into the money aspect, but it just puts me in an awful mindset. My family has either passed on or has cut me off for reasons that aren't to important to this. No matter how hard I try or what I do, I just can't seem to make friends, let alone ones i'd want at my wedding. I'll have no one there for me. My girlfriend does try to understand and sympathize with me, but it's clear she doesn't fully understand why it bothers me so much. She has family and friends she will invite. We are from different countries, and her culture prides themselves on big, tight-knit families. I feel like such an embarrassment, especially because I know her family will be judging everything. She wants a big wedding aswell, and I feel like i'm just going to disappoint her when the day comes and it's obvious no one is there on my side. I dont even know what im wanting to accomplish by posting this, ig im just wanting to see if anyone feels/felt the same way so there'll be atleast one person who'll get it.