so cool to see what y'all are dreaming. i have been really trying to have better dreams and have been on a good streak this week, seemingly out of nowhere, so am seeking advice on how to keep it up.
for most of my relationship with my boyfriend (3 yrs so far, love of my life) i have had these terrible dreams that a version of him cheats on me in all the most horrible ways - friends, his ex, even family - and acts so unlike himself, just looks like him. in fact, i once had an important dream of this type where it turned into a physical fight for the first time and then this entity was dragging me and suddenly the disguise of my boyfriend slid off and i saw a man who looked nothing like my man. it was very freaky but powerful to me.
i think these dreams stem from my anxieties and insecurity, esp with his exes (we have a 10 year age difference so he has quite a bit more than i do). and i get bad intrusive thoughts too, like "what if it's all a lie and he is a completely different person than what you see". it's terrible and often comes so randomly. he is truly so loving and trustworthy; i even feel comfy sharing all about my dreams w him and he is very empathetic and supportive of my healing process.
now this week, i have had like four dreams where he is with me in his real self and i feel so lucky and relieved because he's finally showinf up frequently. i am in his dreams a lot, and i have always been envious. also, we are long distance and it helps with missing each other a lot. anyway, i still feel like i have the same insecurities, intrusive thoughts and anxieties popping up (although i have definitely made great progress in my healing). so im just perplexed by what could be bringing this change so strong and suddenly. i want to better understand it so i can try to keep up the good dreams grounded in our relationship as it is instead of invented anxieties. i have been staying on my parents sofa, spending lots of time out in nature, so that is a big change in routine. also just want to see if anyone hs struggled with similar ptterns of dreams? i just really want to heal this prt of my dream world and have even considered finding a dream therapist lol so thanks for reading and grateful for any thoughts:,) hope it makes sense haha