"Niku enduku pani pata leni vadivi" — When your own family stops caring.
Hi guys, oka personal thing share chesukovali and psychological ga deeni meaning ento ardam kavatledu.
Recently maa family Bhadrachalam trip ki vellaru. Naku asalu plan chesina vishayam kuda telidu, velle mundu roju "Ready avvu" ani chepparu. Nenu "Naku pani undi, startup and freelancing work undi" ani skip chesha. Endukante current ga business lo income em ledu, so nenu full focus ga grind chesthunna.
Vallu moham mide anesharu: "Ni varaku sampadana kuda ledu, nuvvu vachina rakapoyina okate maku" ani. Sare ani nenu vellaledu. Return vachaka kanisam "Thinnava?" ani kuda adagaledu, job ledu ani thiduthune unnaru. Ivala bayataki velli vacha, "Prasadam undi annaru ga evandi" ante, "Ledu finish chesesam, niku enduku pani pata leni vadivi" ani anesaru.
Shocking vishayam entante... naku asalu em anipinchatledu. Kopam ravatledu, bada ledu, frustration ledu. Just vinnanu, "Okay" anukunnanu, anthe.
Usually ilantappudu evaraina hurt avtharu or thidatharu. But naku asalu elanti emotion ravatledu. I’m confused... is this some kind of emotional numbness?
Meelo evaraina ilanti phase face cheshara? Career struggle lo unnappudu family nundi ilanti treatment vachina feeling rakapovadam normal eh na?