u/Icy-Independence218

I apologize for sounding this way but I just don't understand why. So many people proclaim that being a Christian is about loving God and loving thy neighbor as myself. That it's not about what I do but what Jesus did.

So why do people proclaim this but when I go to prayer, I have this need to get rid of something. I haven't prayed in weeks and I prayed for help today and I was just met w/ some nonsense about cutting something else off. It's been like this since the beginning, it's always, cut something off first, love people later.

I can already feel like I just pissed off the Lord for going to you guys and by not "trusting Him" and cutting off what I felt I should have.

Suppose I'm watching YouTube and I see someone who is showing good character traits, it could be anything. From helping out people, to living their life in solitude and being at peace, to being empathetic. All GOOD qualities to have.

Would I be idolizing someone if I choose to replicate their qualities so that I can do the same and become a greater person?

I ask because I have scrupulosity. So for almost every thing I do, I have a small doubt or fear deep down telling me it's sinful. I wouldn't be copying their person entirely, just any characteristic traits. It'd be no different than me going online and seeking advice.

It would help tremendously in my case. Socializing isn't my strong suit and I want to help be there for someone, but I just suck at doing so.