Umm I dont know how to say this or ask for help but I wanna change. I got out of my first relationship last year around August for context I am from India. I didn't anticipate how much it would have an effect on me. I cut off for everybody I knew literally every person from my college. I haven't talked to a single person I know in over a year except my parents. I have an exam that could have changed my life It was scheduled last year November but It didn't go well and I spiralled so hard I gained 20 kgs, it went very ugly from there eating and sleep cycle ruined. Almost to a point of sleeping at 7 am and getting up at 5 pm to avoid everything.
I got addicted to AI porn and videos. I want to change myself I want to get my sleep in order and workout.
I previously lost 20 kgs in 1 year I want to do it again.
I want to give up porn habit which I had for 10 years. If this year I lock in and write my exam I could be in a place unimaginable. If you guys can help please do.
I have never reached out for help but I think I need it.
I jus want to win and look at myself in the mirror.