i’m 13, and I am so tired of my own brain. I get stuck in these constant loops of regret over things that shouldn't even matter anymore
it genuinely feels like I have no thick skin at all. i can't even let go of something that happened to me a long time ago
i am so bothered because i used to run this fan page for this celebrity that I like, but i ended up getting bullied in the comment section. One person called me a "glazer," and i didn't even know what "glazing" meant at the time. And when I realized what they meant, it felt like an attack
every time i think about it, i wish I had never read those comments or even made the post in the first place. It feels like that one situation permanently ruined my fun. i care too much, I always need validation, I take things too personally, and I stay apologizing
i feel like a horrible person right now, and there's a lot of things that I wish I didn't do/say. My brain just never wants to work correctly, and it constantly replays past mistakes, like common sense isn't even there
i just want to be able to feel okay without dwelling over something that happened years ago
Edit: thank you guys for the helpful advice.