Oh well. I just want to know what to to safeguard myself. These two kids got into a fight at the grocery store I work at, the attacker hit the other kid two times in the head, then proceeds to yell profanities and the one who got assaulted said he would be back with a machete. Now on my way back home I see the same kid who was the assaulter, I was on foot and he pulled up nearby me and laughed with his friend, then backed up and sped off. Sigh. This means he knows where I work AND I have a shift literally today around the same time this all took place. It sucks that I am stationed at the entrance, say he did come back, I wouldn't even have enough time to dodge the weapon. Like, dude, I am 4"10 and weigh just over 100 pounds, I mean, he came in flying when he attacked the boy. Even if we COULD have weapons on this post, I currently have none, I can't even find my pepper spray which I have a permit for. My shift is in 7 hours. What would you all do in this situation?
u/I_like_to_roleplay
Title says it all. I think I attach my own personal happiness to my girlfriend. I had my first day of work today and it's a job where you can't be on your phone, unlike other jobs I've held where I can be on my phone. Talk about going into full-blown hyperventilation mode, sheesh. I've had high anxiety all friggin day, we were only able to talk for an hour after I got off work, because I have other things that need my attention. It just sucks, because we had this conversation before, one where we both agreed to not revolve our entire lives around each other in an unhealthy manner, yet here I am, teetering into the danger zone. She just treats me so gently and fragile, in the best ways possible. My ex used to taunt me for expressing my feelings, he'd tell me anxiety wasn't real and I needed to be stronger, but in the cruelest ways possible, to the point it heightened my anxiety exponentially. I love the way she holds me like I am the most precious being on this earth, her cuddles make me feel so loved. My last relationship was the total opposite, it just feels so nice to feel cared for, loved wholeheartedly. I can't even describe the way she touches me, she'll do this thing where she runs her fingers up my chest, I love the way she cherishes my heart. I love her so much. I don't deserve her, but I still want to be in her presence every waking second of the day. I dunno. I just want to fast-forward where we can be married, living together, loving each other genuinely. Anyways. I have a therapy appointment next Monday, maybe I'll also mull over all this again. Do you guys have any advice?