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I just feel so sad, so angry at the universe, and so alone. I cannot really describe it. I just needed to tell someone, because this mattered so much to me.

I was so hopeful. I really thought this one would be it. I even had what looked like a false positive at 3dp5dt, and that broke me. For a moment, I let myself believe it might finally be happening.

And now I have been crying uncontrollably for the last two hours.

I also feel anxious because I know I cannot stop. I feel like someone is missing, and I feel stupid for even thinking that, but it is how I feel.

I am also scared because I am not sure I can handle another egg retrieval. For those of you who have been here: how did you move forward?