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Hit side of face/jaw hard on the ice (ironically, in a way a helmet wouldn't have helped). Passed out cold for 30 seconds, can't remember the 30 seconds before or 2 minutes after. Don't remember getting up and skating to hockey box. First memory, is being confused as to why I was sitting there with people around me. It was so surreal when I came to, I didn't believe it was real. I tried to walk off in disbelief before someone stopped me. I was annoyed like - can people please just pretend this didn't happen and leave me alone so i can finish the session?! Then felt sick to my stomach - not because of concussion but at the realization of how badly I must have ef'd up to now have an EMT in my face, asking me if I knew how old I was. This was all on video (may share the actual fall later). Of course I've pondered what happened A LOT in the last week. Despite remembering nothing of the incident, I can't get it off my mind. Especially those first 10 minutes when it fully hit me that I seriously messed up, and the effect it had on my kid who was watching. After a lot of pondering what happened, these are the things that bother me most. Some I see a path to fix, others I don't know:

1. I don't know how to skate in an "afraid to fall" mindset, or really do any sport with fear involved. I either get over the fear or quit the sport. Whether it's on the water, under the water, the slopes, the skies, or a rock face - I do it 100% effort. I've fallen a thousands times on the ice in my youth. This is different - i'm having trouble processing it. As a teen skater, I would practice a move or a jump, for an hour straight falling every single time and not care. I never once came close to hitting my head. It always confused me as to how people do so easily. I know it's silly because the risk was always there. But man... this makes me question everything.

2. As I ponder causes/mistakes, I'm worried about my skates (newish Jackson FS). I feel like i struggle between too small and too big. I struggle with heal lock and the toe box being too big. Yet, in a 1/2 size smaller and regular width, I can't even fit with laces loose. There is no fitment support here. I might just be done till this fall when I visit a large city. I'm worried that my skates are just flat dangerous at this point for someone like me, who takes risks, progresses (to where I was in my youth) quickly, and skates with 100% of my effort, every single session. Did that actually cause my fall? Not sure, but I'm sure it didn't help, and I distinctly recall thinking, my left skate needs re-lacing. Oh well... i'm doing back spins right now so screw it. Then, didn't consider it later before moving onto scratch/sit spins. It wasn't like I had significant movement. Just... wasn't exactly as snug as I wanted. And i'm very picky in this regard anyway.

3. I'm not confident I can stop a freak incident like this from happening again and it's not ok that it happened. I can't point to one single thing I did that was the worst of all decisions. There were a few things... but nothing specific. I cannot put my kid (skating with me that day) through something like that again. She thought I was dead.

4. I need to be more careful with core skills, and remember to move through them each session before moving onto learning/re-learning. But... then again. It's just a sit spin. I consider this a low risk thing - i'm already close to the ground/ice.

I might share the video on another post... still deciding if that's a good idea or not. But, here's what happened:

At the end of a coaching session with a club coach. Was pretty tired (long session, 1.5 hours). We took a break from working on back spins and I decided to fine tune the scratch spin which to my surprise was off axis that day after doing back spins for an hour. Despite that (first mistake here), the suggestion was to try a sit spin. I went into it from a standard backwards cross over/scratch spin entrance. Swung free leg from the side kinda violently/bad form (mistake 2), but was also up in the air pretty high - wasn't sitting low yet. More bad form. Likely all cause I was pretty tired by that point. I lost edge control due to loose skate maybe (mistake 3?) or just bad positioning, put left arm down on ice to brace what was a violent sideways fall in progress, but was wearing knit mitten (mistake 4), and it was like putting a greased hand in contact with the ice. Hand went straight back behind me/slid. Only thing left to break my fall was side of my face - and so it did. Instant KO like a left hook to the cheek/jaw.

I'll get over it mostly likely. I'm committed to skate again in a couple of weeks - taking a two week break. Maybe partly just coming here to share. My thoughts on all this aren't complete.

My next door neighbor owns a local, large septic company. Dominates all services in a 120 mile radius. They have employees, who are also relatives of the owner, who live next door in a double wide. They generally leave us alone, though we've had run-ins that weren't pleasant. Just noticed their pump truck doing circles in their 1 acre yard. My wife says they have been doing this all week. I walk over to the fence, snap pictures, video of the brown sewage, and of course the smell makes it obvious what's going on. I have a friend who works for city septic and claims it is not possible to get an open land dump permit for a 1 acre yard, and that all open land dump permits are impossible to get now in our state. I've had other issues with this neighbor and the one next door who is also related, and an employee of said septic company owners. I turned the other one into the county health department two years ago, for parking multiple campers in her yard and leasing them out, while hooking all of them up to their 3 bedroom septic system.

I plan to turn them in again tomorrow for the dumping. But, I just found out a few months ago, they've been turned in multiple times, all over the county. One person turned them in for emptying the truck right in a local river. A friend of mine turned them in for dumping in a field near them. All of these things carry fines, and if you get the max fine, it probably doesn't even equal the profit a single full truck made on pumping a dozen outhouses that day. For example, IF I turn them in tomorrow, IF the county does something, the most they will get fined is $500. It sucks, but I'm not even sure it's worth making bigger enemies with them when they already hate me. I'm not sure what to do. I own my house in a pre COVID interest rate. I'm not moving.

I spent a significant number of years in the Calvary movement after growing up in a Reformed background. This was a large, nationally known Calvary Chapel church (3,000+ members), from 2007–2018, bigger now I think. During that time, I rarely heard heavy eschatology teaching from the pulpit. It was there, sure- but it wasn’t a constant fixation.

Fast forward to now, and i'm frankly concerned about people I know who attend those churches. Random example of MANY: Every time I turn on CSN, (pretty much my only connection to that world now), I can hardly go five minutes without hearing strong, dogmatic declarations about end-times theology. It's gotten frankly, extreme and obsessive.

Example of a giant rant on a single episode of "Every Man an Answer" on April 24th, 2026 - this is all one episode - you can go listen yourself. The caller in question is about 20 minutes in:

• Parker said: “this idea is hogwash” and that "Augustine created amillennialism"
• Mike Keslter said the idea of amillennialism "is a lie" and "against the Bible."
• Scott Parker argued that "pre-tribulation premillennialism is the only view found throughout the Bible", claiming even "Noah and the flood and Enoch’s being taken were prophetic pictures of the rapture and tribulation."
• He also claimed, and I direct quote: "the Old Testament contains more verses about the millennium than any other subject" - which honestly struck me as an extraordinary claim!

What bothered me most wasn’t even the position itself. It was the intensity, and how those two just flat out got triggered into a 30+ minute rage, where they ignored all other callers and subject, but a simple question: "Is the modern rapture is historically new or not" - probably a rage bate question, but boy did they rage! Almost 2 commercial breaks, without taking more calls touching on everything from Fukushima Daiichi nuclear disaster to Iran and North Korea as evidence of end-times fulfillment. They only quoted one verse of course: Matthew 24 - no surprises there, and referenced other parts of scripture as example/or theme based. It feels like hermeneutical caution just flat out disappears when eschatology enters the conversation in that movement. Positions that faithful Christians have debated for centuries are increasingly framed not as disagreements among believers, but as deception or compromise, or "lies".

That’s troubling. I genuinely grew a lot in my faith through Calvary churches, and I’m thankful for much of what I learned there. But lately, it feels like some of the loudest voices in the movement are spending more energy defending a very specific end-times framework than preaching Christ, discipleship, repentance, and the gospel itself. Am I alone in noticing this shift? Or has this always been part of the movement and I just didn’t see it before?