u/IAMAYUBDUCK

Hey this is going to be long

So i have a medical card for my chronic pain and emotional dysregulation, i have PTSD, along with other mental health conditions which I don't feel like sharing but for physical pain i have something called Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome which causes me joint and muscle pain to say the least, my hips and shoulders go out of place and i have terrible migraines and neck pain aswell. Medical exposition aside,

i am addicted and have been for awhile,

but i am stuck in this difficult place because i use it for my medicine but I know i need to take some sort of a break but i just, i dont know how, I don't have many good ways to distract myself or keep myself occupied efficiently without having some sort of panic attack. The only way ive been able to deal with the pain along with the immense anxiety has been to sedate myself until the day is over, which is unhealthy in one way but because of my health conditions and my chronic usage which has increased over the past few months i had to quit smoking which was my main form of intake, i still take edibles when im able to. I just dont know what to do when it comes to the bigger picture, of course i will be talking to my therapist about this but im just not sure what other options i have.

apologies for the run-on sentences its a bad habit of mine. Thank you for reading