My mom asked if I'm cured since I stopped talking about my pain
I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia about 4 or 5 years ago but the issues have been going on since childhood. Mainly in my hands but now spread all over my body. When i was young I didn't realize it was an issue but my parents also didn't take it seriously next to my diabetic brother. I must want attention right?
Over the years I realized whenever I say I can't do something because it hurts, somebody else always had it worse. So I stopped talking about being in pain. I did my best to function and cried when I was alone. I found my ways of getting through life.
Yesterday my mom asked me if I'm cured of fibro because i don't talk about it anymore and it made me internally fume and honestly just sad.
There is no fucking cure. My life will always be in constant pain. People will always think I'm gaslighting or making my pain seems bigger than it is because I don't 'seem ill'. And I know it's the reality for most of us here.
I will never have kids because nobody deserves this kind of pain. I will never do things others are able to do. I will never fully be a person who I want to be. Because 80% of me is pain and more pain. I have thought about ending it a million and one times. I still do every day.
And yet you think I'm just looking for attention. Funny.