In my 36 years of life, I feel I've spent half of it finding a career that suits me or where I feel needed. How do I get out of a dead end and stop being obsessive about that quest?
I have gone through career counselling and done MBTI tests (or similar) countless times. Read many books about passion and purpose. Had multiples jobs in different fields (my resume is complicated). The job market is going against me (my skills set and certifications are not sought right now).
I think I'll never figure it out.
Do all car mechanics love cars?
Do you really need a "deep and visceral" passion for airplanes to work in aviation?
Do people become electricians (or any other trade) just for the money?
Why do I get jealous when I hear people say they had some mentor or someone in their youth guide them or open their eyes on their own talents and skills? I've never had that. It was always: "Do what you want!"
I am tired of being cynical and unhappy at work, I just feel incomplete and purposeless. That whole career searching and "soul" searching is an obsession.