u/Hungry-Tea2407

18F - Everytime I think about my sexuality, it gets me extremely anxious and low mood. Why does this have to be such a negative thing?

I don’t think it helps that I’ve had 2 long-term, straight relationships and always wanted to explore my wlw side. Recently, although I’m with my boyfriend who I do love, I’ve been having more thoughts about women including fantasising about someone I know personally. I’m not sure if recently the anxiety is because of guilt, but every time I’ve questioned exactly where my preferences lay it’s hard to focus on anything else and it gives me a persistent low mood. Does anyone else experience this? If so, how do you overcome it?