I feel as if I can’t eat because of how guilty I am… I failed my first year of uni and I’ve been living in my parents home. Recently, I haven’t been eating breakfast or my lunch because of how guilty I feel about it.. Since they provide me everything I feel like I don’t wanna eat because of how undeserving I am. I eat a little nowadays. I don’t know if I’m okay..
I finished my first year of uni and so many things have gone downhill. I can't even begin to imagine all the stress that's on me at the moment but during the first year I was absolutely clueless with the amount of work I needed to do/put into. I started with 5 courses, the workload was insane and I could barely catch up. I didn't understand anything and kept delaying things and not studying because of the stress. Afterwards, when the exams came I attempted but I couldn't even put anything down on the paper for answers and I guessed the majority of them.
Because I thought that it was achievable after doing 5 in high school but it wasn't. I was crumbling apart and wasn't focused in all of them equally. I was also doomscrolling a lot trying to cope with this and procrastinating so it led to nowhere.
Anyways, I skipped some too but in the end I came out of there with a F and D and everything else as incompleted. In my second term things weren't really any better as I decided to take 5 again, thinking that things would change but nothing did... I ended up performing better but barely. I was scraping by with 2 C+'s and 1 B. I was doing the bare minimum and couldn't keep up either... Then in my summer term, I was originally gonna take 5 classes again but I cut it down to 2. I have my parent's backing me but if they figured this out I'd be killed...
A lot of things stacked on top of each other and honestly I can't give myself any good reasoning as to why I'm like this.. Other students have full time jobs, international, along with 5 courses. They could be from worse backgrounds than mine and yet I lacked so much focus. I felt totally lost.
That and I just kept all my struggles to myself.
I lied to my parents that I had a 3.0 gpa when in reality it's 1.45 gpa. I just feel like things are falling apart and out of my grasp but I want to try and fix things.. I already talked to an advisor, counsellor, and later next week I'll have to talk to counsellors/management about this.. But even then I feel like I'm still struggling. My parents yelled at me saying I was ungrateful and better off being a housekeeper if my mind can't achieve anything from a 3.0, B student. I'm from immigrant parents so this really sucks..
Most likely I'll be kicked out.
I'm not even a B student. I'm a F student and inside it's been really killing me and I don't know what to do... I just feel like dying but I'm too scared to pull something like that through and nobody else knows this except for other authority figures... Not even friends.
I feel like I can achieve better things and help myself but I don't know my living conditions right now.. I don't even know what'll happen if they find out I wasn't able to attend this class I needed for my university major because I was waitlisted..
Just feels like things are falling apart but I don't want to give up so I'm retaking a course and completing another elective...
I need advice, thanks for reading.. But anyways the guilt has been eating me away and I don't know how to survive from this all..
It was taught during the summer, something about reviewing a lot of cases in court trials and discussing about them. I forgot what it is called though… Taught by David Hampton. Needing help remembering what it is…
All these agpa’s are so high… It’s stressing me out… I’m getting worried for mine, I’m trying to do 5 subjects in the summer to boost my GPA with all A+’s but I’m worried… I’m retaking MBIO, BIOL 1410, BIOL 1412
And also 3 science electives… My previous grades were bad- like 2 C+’s and one B… for three classes.
I’m hoping for all A+’s to boost this but I don’t know.. .
During the summer, I’m on the waitlist for anatomy but I want to take Physiology as well and it occurs at the same time I have Microbiology. I’m not sure what to do since I want to complete Physiology in the summer along with Anatomy. Is there any other ways of doing this? I want to get into Winter 2027 Nursing
Also, is anatomy not 2 months but 4?
What is the course number for A&P in the summer?? Is it just like fall where you register for anat and automatically in phys??