Have you ever suffocated your own motivation in BJJ?
So background is I’ve been training for a few years. My first martial art is actually Thaiboxning but then I started MMA and grappling. I’ve always been cross training until about a year ago. I moved to my small hometown and was just gravitating towards bjj, although I’ve been missing doing other martial arts, bjj felt right. So I’ve been a white belt for a while since I haven’t been consistent in one place. I’ve been competing and done really well. But this weekend I got one gold and one silver and I don’t know, I just wasn’t happy. Didn’t feel that great feeling of winning I’ve had before and just wanted to go home in all honesty. I feel like it’s just become about getting it done, moving to the next comp. Chasing that blue belt. I’ve totally lost the joy I used to feel and the curiosity in learning.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? What did you do? How did you go about it? How do I find the joy in the sport again?