I picked up smoking again and I'm feeling ashamed :(
I smoked cigarettes for like 8 years, going through a pack every two days. It took me years to quit, probably one of the hardest things I ever did but I conquered it and it was something I was really proud of. I went on a fitness journey and never felt better in my life. It has been 5 years of being smoke free.
In the last month I've been going through a wildly stressful time, I feel like I could make a freaking reality TV show about it and my body hurts physically from all the stress, not to mention everyone around me at work is always smoking. Somehow without me even consciously thinking about it I'd smoke a cigarette here and there and now it's full blown addiction again, I'm buying packs and it's the first thing I do when I wake up. I'm feeling so ashamed but I feel like I can't stop.
Who here has picked back up and quit a second time? Third? God I just feel so lousy and i could use some kind words or motivation.