u/Hennessyveil

I was almost two years. I don’t count by the days any more but it feels like such a waste. All gone. And the worst part is. I don’t see any negatives right now. I don’t care. I hate myself for it. I wish I wasn’t like this sometimes, and I do t know why I am. I’m still sober from everything else, but why with here? Why not this. Guess I’ll just have to rebuild it all again. It’s ironic cuz the meetings and group that got me sober in the first place are coming back in two weeks, after a pretty long hiatus.. I was doing well, I was okay. Then it crumbled. I don’t even know why.