I wasn’t gonna go this year for a number of reasons. But fuck it. Pretty Lights is my literal favorite and I live in Colorado. So I’m gonna make it work and fully send it. Plus I got a bonus from work that just so happened to be the exact amount I spent for Yahn Dawn - the day after I booked it! So it feels like the universe wants me to go. 👁️👄👁️. I’m excited.
I am so over the terrible dynamics of this job. At our school, we have 5 paras. 2 of them work exclusively in the S.S.N. room. The other 3 of us are general education inclusion paras. One the 3 gen ed paras is a total mean girl. Yet somehow everyone loves her because she spends tons of money buying the latest and greatest trends in fashion. New outfit everyday. Super fake bubbly personality. And when she first started, she wouldn’t stop making weird (not good) racist comments to me about my race. It was a daily basis thing and it just would not stop. Then one day, she decided to completely stop interacting with me. Wouldn’t say a word and now she does everything in her power to avoid being in the same room as me. It’s so odd! She treats the other para weirdly too but she seems to have a big problem with me specifically. Seemingly out of nowhere.
We have the same lunch time and everyday she has gotten to the point where she feels the need to find somewhere else to eat her lunch because she doesn’t want to be in the para office with me. This person also comes to work late everyday. Always comes in after school has already begun and frequently calls out sick. We also share lunch duty so we are both supposed to watch the kids at the same time. But she comes out 10 minutes late. Everyday. I tried that once just to test it and the assistant principal called me out immediately. But nobody notices that she does it everyday.
Back when she would talk to me, she would complain about being poor and needing food stamps but then in the same sentence talk about shopping trips to Target for new clothes. And how her grandma helps her pay the bills.
Side note: every week, our school gives shout outs to people. Anonymously submitted by anyone and everyone.
Now, one of the S.S.N. Paras is being investigated for something so someone (idk who) asked the mean girl gen ed para to come in and help out. She was in there for 2 days and got a shout out in the weekly email. “Thank you to X for *taking on the role of a higher up* and stepping in to help the SSN room”
I’m so tired of her getting excessive amounts of praise when she half asses lunch duty, scrolls on her phone constantly and calls in sick. People like her because of her shiny new outfits and they don’t see through her fake bubbly way of speaking.
I already have a lot of frustrations about being treated like “the lowly para”. There’s been a lot of instances where teachers act like I’m stupid and useless but then lean on me for a LOT of support. More than what’s in my job description. The latest thing I’m pissed about is one of the teachers whose class I’m in everyday completely removed the desk that paras sit at. Like it’s totally gone and she didn’t say a word about it. That was the second time that teacher removed my seat without speaking to me. I was so pissed that I couldn’t address it right away because my words would not have come out calmly. So I will address that on Monday.
I’m just over this job in general. I’m trying SO hard to land something else over the summer because I cry everyday thinking about having to come back.
I didn’t mention all my issues with it because this post is already too long. But my main issue is working with people who see me as idiot scum without a college degree. And fuck fake ass coworkers and fuck colleagues favoring the WORST people!! I’m tired of seeing her name in the weekly shout out. How about she simply comes to work everyday on time? She can’t even do that, yet people are eating out of her hand.
I think a lot of people could be more bubbly and wear new outfits everyday if they had someone to pay all their bills and they only worked 3-4 days per week.
I’m just really frustrated right now. Don’t comment something mean or act like a smart ass in the replies. I don’t need it or want to hear it. Everyone has rough times. I’m going though one.