i was supposed to get the call today to tell me what time to show up for surgery tomorrow and instead they told me i’ve been rescheduled for later next month. i have already been an anxious mess for the last 24h+ trying to prepare mentally and logistically and now i just feel devastated from the emotional roller coaster of all that + having the rug pulled out from under me.
i’ve also been going out of my way to pump myself full of protein and eat all the right things for the last three weeks - i literally spent probably twice my usual grocery budget for the month just to be sure and lowkey feel gross from eating more than i normally do and now i’m going to have to do that all over again/keep it up for another three weeks.
i know there’s a good reason it got pushed but this is so hard to process when it was literally less than a day‘s notice.