Do i be friends with them or not?/ what do i do?
can someone help me? Im in highschool and recently changed schools to a new one basically i had this friend group in my new class (without my old friends who were in a different class) whom i joined and they all are very nice and i considered them really good friends! So there are these 2 girls in the group, 1 which ive knows since i was younger, and the second i just met this year, so us 3 used to hangout a lot since we lived nearby to eachtoher these girls also have these close guy friends whom im like okayish friends with except this other guy who i know really well. they had made a gc with us 3 and some of the boys including the one i was close with, so this guy friend (who i was close with) told me sm joke that i didnt get at the time (which now i know is really offensive about the 2nd girl's family which is absolutely shit.).
fast forward to sm time later these guys in the gc use that joke that i thought i had gotten the meaning off (i thought it was about some fake fight) and so i joined them just tease her but she didnt know the meaning off it. So later after this whole thing those both girls call me and tell me "whats wrong with you" and things and im like what? wdym? and then they cut the call and i ask the guy friend im close to, to give me a clear meaning of the joke then i realised what it meant. after that i texted the girl (about whose joke was about) and i texted her till around 12. after that i felt really guilty and didntk know what to do since whenever i would text her she would say she wants to talk later so i respected that and waited till around 3 am to see if she was online and if she was texting me.
the whole i couldnt stop crying idek why i felt really bad. i tried talking to her over the next few days but something kept coming up for her, eventually i told her my side and explained that it wasnt okay for what i did either, and she understood and said it was okay. the thing was during that time, she foragve the guy who made the joke, and they both started telling those guys (in the gc) about how i victimised myself and how i wanted male validation and attention and how to never trust me and shii. Now we are kind of back to normal, idek because i cant look at her the same way ever since i heard she said that about me.
Maybe i am wrong and i want attention or smth idek. i just want advice, can someone help me?- also that whole friendsgroup was off to me, i had to rebuild shit with them.