Need to get a huge fuck up off my chest, maybe it’ll make you feel better. I’ve never had the best work ethic but after years of last minute breakdowns (only way to get that 3.9 gpa in my first two years) I just snapped in my last two years, and I haven’t realized til now.
In third year I just watched the time pass and didn’t show to two finals, just sat there frozen because I hadn’t studied at all and didn’t want to face the exam or the process of studying. I’m aware of how stupid that is. I said I would make up for it in fourth year. Didn’t! Instead, I submitted my thesis proposal so late for a research-based course that I auto failed it.
This is unbelievable even for me. I don’t even know how I would go about getting a fresh start for any career, let alone med. I just don’t know how it happened. I like research, I like my major, etc. What the hell?