I've been struggling with blasphemous thoughts, but I've been ignoring them. I do NOT agree with them, I do NOT want them. Never EVER have I thought like this, but one day, all of a sudden , boom, I was getting attacked the most ugliest blasphemous thoughts ever. Whenever they come, I say, "In the name of Jesus, I rebuke these thoughts,". I've cried over these thoughts before and feel distressed over them sometimes, but it's hard to explain what I really feel. Whenever I ignore these thoughts, it feels like I'm doing something wrong - like it feels like that if i ignire them, then i must want them when i dont!!! Ive barely eaten because of these thoughts. But when I fight back, they get worse. It's hard to explain. im sorry.
But recently, I've been feeling as if I just. Don't care?? Is that bad?? Is it okay that it feels like I dont care about these thoughts?? Am I supposed to feel stressed?? I've seen people say, "You should ignore them - its okay if you dont feel anything," but then I've seen people say, "If you feel worried, then you haven't committed the unforgivable sin." I feel so lost, I don't know if I have or haven't committed the unforgivable sin or not. Have I??