u/He0204

So I have been in recovery for about 2 years. I finally feel better about life and things in general. You’d think I would be content about how my life is improving. I’m catching myself dealing with cravings right now and it’s hard to break from it. I want to just go out and get some favors and get myself into a high.

I hate how I’m dealing with this feeling with going to old patterns but I’m trying to avoid falling in pattern of using. I know that putting my feelings out here is acknowledging the situation and making sure that I am in a safe place and that I avoid the old patterns.

Just needed to vent this out so that I get it off my chest. Thank you for reading my thoughts and offering your support.