Meeting the God of my understanding!!!!!
Someone made a post about their HP, & it got me to thinking about mine. This was my response, & felt that I should share it here. This is my first post in this subreddit!
Every time I took enough pills to kill an elephant, He was there, ensuring I didn’t die! Every time I drove somewhere, either drunk or so pilled up I don’t remember doing it, He was there, ensuring that I didn’t wreck, wrap my car around a tree, have a cop waiting to pull me over, & always moving families going home out of my way, so I didn’t kill them in my stupor!!!!! He watched me do all of these things, allowing me to go through the things I did to myself. Waiting patiently for me to get to a point where I was so sick & tired of being sick & tired, I walked into an NA meeting, picked up a welcome key tag, & was willing to find a new way to live! He used the arms & voices of the people in the rooms to hug me, & tell me that I was loved!!!!! He used another addict that had what it seemed to me I wanted in my own life. Peace & serenity!!!!! He used another bunch of addicts to care enough about me to write a bunch of books, literature, & a guide that allowed me to finally, clearly see that He wasn’t only waiting for me to see Him, He was carrying me most of the way!!!!! When my eyes were finally opened, he wasn’t there waiting to beat me up like I’d been taught, He was standing there, His arms wide open, waiting for His son to come home to Him!!!!! That’s my God!!!!!