Hii💗 been thinking about something for a few months now, and what better place to ask than here, loll
I've been transitioning for 5 years (HRT, FFS) since I was 17 (I'm 22 now)
And I’ve always watched gay p*rn (daddy/twink, to be more specific loll), since I’ve never liked straight or trans porn or felt represented by it (which is something I need to feel while whatching so i can get turned on).
The thing is, in real life sex, my arousal drops significantly when I imagine or see myself having sex with my female body and atributes like long hair etc, as if they don’t represent me sexually??
And it’s like I “need” to imagine that I’m that twink again for the situation to turn me on, you know what I mean?
Plus, I’m getting breast surgery soon because it gives me such dysphoria, and I feel like I’m drifting further and further away from that “twink” image so im scared my future sexual encounters will not be arousing to me :// am i cooked?
Lol ty 4 reading💗