u/Hatsune_Memeku

Hi all! I'm a schizophrenic person as well as someone who enjoys spirituality. It's hard for me to talk to like-minded people about my diagnosis since people tend to not understand and come off even ableist, even when they're trying to compliment me.

I understand the dangers of being someone with schizophrenia, and how easily I can disconnect from reality if I am not careful, and enjoying and learning about spirituality in all sorts of factors. But it is a risk I am willing to take since I was spiritual even before my development of the disorder and it's something that brings me comfort.

My problem lands on people who refuse to understand it is, in fact, a DISORDER. It is not a gift. I don't speak to gods or ghosts or demons or anything like that. In fact, I hallucinate weird random things such as blobs on the floor or anime and video game characters. I promise you, it's not spiritual in the slightest.

I just needed somewhere to rant about this and I'm sure this subreddit would understand. It is endangerment to even imply someone in psychosis is being awakened. Anti science mixed with spirituality is genuinely dangerous, and I wish people would stop glamorizing and even downright fetishizing what I have to go through.

As a spiritual person, I find myself more connected with myself when I've taken my safety steps. It's easier to do my practices that way.

I know this rant is kind of a nothing burger, but thank you for reading!

I really hope this doesn't break any rules! This jas just been on my mind and I don't have many people to talk about it with.

Hi, I'm an early onset schizophrenic as well as someone who developed it via genetics and surroundings. I have a huge ego over drug-induced schizophrenics and i really want to get rid of it. A part of me is angry and jealous because I've never touched a drug in my life and I still developed it just by bad luck alone. I don't like how angry and vicious it makes me on the inside even though I'd never speak this anger out loud.

Does anyone else experience this/has anyone ever solved it? I don't wanna be a bad person man :/

Edit: thank you for all the kindness despite me sharing something so hateful about myself. I reallh appreciate all the advice and i'll do my absolute best to speak to others and grow as a person. I don't want to be a bad person and I hate this particular glaring bad trait. I love you all ♡ pls stay safe