AITA If I am cheating?or it’s normal?
I am 20F and my bf is 21M , we both are in a relationship since 2024 it’s been 2+ years , and we are in college He is a gem guy like he has cried for me so many times I have cried for him , we both put efforts but I’m I put more efforts, everyone respects him or like he is a very well mannered guy and I am that bina soche samjhe kuch bhi karne wali ladki , he has like took stand for me during bad college politics and all but I am a very insecure girl also I have little Trust issues coz on his bday night I randomly checked his insta dm , which I rarely do and I found out he is talking to a girl and it was a long chat as soon as I asked him he started shivering and begging and he cried a lot too and explained that everyone knows he is talking to that girl coz he is talking for his friend for whom that girl was saying shit so after 1 week I forgive and obviously ruined his bday dinner which he had planned , ok so after this incident I got trust issues and AB Mujhe hota h shaq wo kisi ladki se baat kare to, wo boht conservative community se aata h you might have guessed it correct… so ya obviously caste system is a big thing in India but we don’t consider coz we think we are too young rn to think about that and all but I really wanna marry him , also recently on my bday he gave me so many gifts too n all , now tha main point comes
One week since we both properly talked to each other and ese hi kisi ladki ko leke I was yk mood off from him then he broke UP with me gusse me aake coz he says I AM TOO INSECURE or har cheez m mujhe kalesh karna h , i mentally fck him to mera bhi hogaya or mene bhi mind distract karne k liye HINGE chala liya with fake name n pic though my id got suspended but a guy I haven’t saw him irl so can’t say about his looks but well mannered and rich maybe dk we both started talking and then mera wapis almost patch up bhi hojata h mere not so Ex se now that HINGE GUY has my no and once I almost said yes to go out with him not on date but as a friend and thoda just roaming around kinda thing , but then I cancelled the plan at last moment , now I AM CONFUSED LIKE IF I AM CHEATING ON MY BF/LOML or if he is the Loml them how can I even think about that other hinge guy ALSO I FEEL GUILTY FOR THIS HINGE GUY coz I feel like I am giving him false hopes to him and Isk that guy personally BUT STILL HURTING SOMEONE OR TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HIS FEELING DOESNT FEEL RIGHT. Now what do I do coz this all is fcking my mind and I feel like I am cheating on my boyfriend/hommie/loml/bestfriend.