Today I turn 21 - and its day 16 of no contact as the title says:
I really wanted to reach out to my ex today but she set a boundary of don't call or text and if i wanna reach out then i can send a letter. she hasn't blocked me either.
I knew she wouldnt reach out today because she knows she broke my heart and was the one to initiate this breakup - and i think she understood she really hurt me during the push and pull afterwards.
I said to her i would send her a letter on the day we agreed on no contact but now i dont know about it because ive been the one to initiate and ive been the one that was pushed away so idk i feel weird.
All i can do is give her space and time while focusing on myself. she left because she was hurt and really overwhelmed. I dont know what chances i have if any. im confused because she didnt agree when i asked if it was forever, all she said was idk and she would be scared to interrupt my healing in the future... ??
I love and miss her. I know we both need this no contact. I feel as though im handling it way worse even tho i am getting a lot more clarity and i feel as though i am improving/progressing :)
anyway