Moving out
I am 22 years old (becoming 23 this year), muslim woman and I took the initiative to put my name on a lease with two of my other friends. I have been paying rent since February but haven't actually lived there and I wanted to tell my parents before things got too obvious that my stuff were beginning to disappear in my room.
I told them yesterday because they ended up bringing someone out of the family, involved in the situation and they decided to chew me out with family guilt, poor financial decisions and not contributing to house hold things such as shopping, cleaning the house, doing the laundry etc. I have been labelled as a spoilt child for wanting to leave the house where my parents are still alive and wanting to move away from a good opportunity of not paying rent.
They are now asking me to find someone else to replace my name on the lease and pay for my rent but I want to experience living on my own and realise what I have now (while living with my parents), is something I should be grateful for or its a guilt that is swallowing me whole. They also use the religious guilt on me that I should move out when I am married but I want to try and live on my own not when im married and living with a husband.
I work part time and recieve youth allowance thanks to my name on the lease which helps me to pay rent, pay bills, pay for my health needs (I.e., the gym) and give my family money whenever they need it (this includes me paying and contributing to house hold items
I have asked my other friends for ideas and their opinions and they have said I should just leave, but I don't know know why I have this guilt that is eating me from the inside, that is refusing my legs to move on their own and leave the house.
Asking for 3rd opinions here on what I should do from here on out because I feel stuck...