Feels like i bummed out my life so far (my dump of thoughts)
Hello Everyone, I am a boy or man 🤔 (confused because I feel like I have not matured enough to be a man, I think so) at 24-ish age. Let me start my sob story of life. Not much interesting tings to share about my life, as most of it is vague and continuous injuries occurred in accidents in my teenage days, got good parents who are understanding and keeping my unemployed ass at home. I had an average introvert school life as quiet kid but not quite quite kind but average background npc character that is interactable dialogues hoad no deep friendship till high school i think i got two good friends and my high school but not that deep i thinks so ( but wanna improve my friendship) I feel like my life is quite ... I dont't know how to express in words like a passable character or npc ish feel ( maybe my expections have been based on cinemas or don't know). Well, I am a walking contradiction. I wanna have more friends, but I hate to talk to new people, they're just people in general. well i dont even know when i last hugged someone ( i thinks huggs are good don't know i dont have any remebarance of hugging some one) oh feels like i have gone off topic the things is I started my carreer not quite a career i just joined a job at 2022 dec as i done my bca in 2022 in a tier 3 unfamous or non poplar college (which is school affliated i don have any good meemories in my college but the fees was so cheap compared to other colleges but school was fun) I took bca because at the time i dont know what to pick (till now i don't know what to do on a side note i think carreer's are not that important my prespective it s just a job anyways moneys it make and comfort are need) As i was saying my first job is a medical indexer for ime exam done for insurance for us medical which i quit (run away) after 8 months then looked for a better job or better or affordable payable job the first one pay is 10k inr then i was unemployed for 8 months and got placed in another one as data annotator or content writer which the pay is 16 k been there for 1 yr 7 months till last sep of 2025 but the work was too toxic worked a month with out leaves full extension ot was a regular thing got pressure with 2 rounds of layoffs offing arounf 1500 people because of idiot management so due to extended overtime i quit ( i know u can call me lazy or waste other but at that time i was quite burned out and u may think its an quite easy job to fuss about may be my capacity is that all) cuurently after the quit i been unemployed ( u may ask u r lazy bro do u have so much money the ans is no we are what i think is a low....no very low income family but the one thing i did while i was in job was to put into savings so this time i have some saving which is gonna run dry) at dec mid i joined a skecthy company as a freelancer for hourly wages for anothertrr company innodata who works on multimango but the work was on and off so it been over
So finally i wanna hear out from any one for what to do next as i feel bored incompetent as i cannot enjoy anything i previously enjoyed even sitting before lap is feeling like chore so every one suggest me a way so i can choose from as i am ignorant of the worldly choice that are available because i feel like the jobs are less and current market demands skills and social networking which i don't have and im trash at, so i wanna explore multiple choice out there for both work and life i would also like if you suggest any hobbies or activity to try be it anything so share ur thoughts
P.S. Note: the above are my jumbled thought that flowed directly from my thoughts without being filtered, so I may be a bit weird and over the places, so pls bear with it and please be a little bit kind in the response as I know I am lazy and useless but it feels better to hear cheering words.
Cheers to the life everyone... A lost person
