Made to Resign
So I have been a pre-k teacher this school year. Completely new to the role all together. And felt like I was given a crap hand. Long story short. The co-teacher I had originally was horrible to the students and wouldn't even talk to me during the day. The kids wouldn't even go to her. No activities planned from her to do etc. She was let go in December . And a new teacher was hired, things had been going well until I started to get overwhelmed recently.
Fast forward to yesterday when I was randomly called into the office and was told either resign or we have to fire you. Citing complaints against me over the last couple weeks. In retrospect I have not been myself and have been dealing with a lot of emotional stress from our upcoming IVF embryo transfer. There are always two teachers in the room but I was blamed for having 2 kids having wet diapers going home, I check every child at our designated times and in between. But apparently I missed them, and this has been the only time it's happened all year.
I've also been documenting incident reports for children and apparently I had been documenting too many according to the director. I would personally be upset as a parent if something happened at school and no one told me about it. I was told unless a mark was left on another student, don't write a report. And said I was targeting certain students bc of it. They were pushing, hitting, throwing things at others constantly, or kids had fallen or whatnot. So I documented it. So I feel like they wanted me to downplay it unless a "mark" was left.
Also, I have been dealing with an especially problematic child whom attacks the youngest 3 in the class. Full on hit, slap, grab them by there neck and try to pick them up, and then throw them on the ground. Sit on them, scratch them. They had attacked all 3 smaller children multiple times that day and I even went to the director about it, but was told not to put in any incident reports. So I in poor judgement placed them in the highchair while I was doing diaper changes at the end of the day. I got her out as soon as I was done and normally it takes me less than 10min to get everyone situated. She was mad and crying by the time I got her out.This was absolutely my mistake for chosing to do this. I'm fully aware of my lapse in judgement. This was something told to us by the director herself to use to help redirect or remove the kids from a situation briefly. If they were being harmful to others.
Being new to this doesn't excuse my mistakes but I was trying my best with what I was given. And I realized that I was set up to fail.
Based off those incidents which were the same day. No prior issues. I admit my mistakes, and I feel awful that I let it happen. I have just been so overwhelmed with planning activities by myself, and doing everything on top of my own home life IVF stuff. I just feel so awful, and am going to miss those kids, they've come such a long way this year and have had to deal with multiple teachers. I guess I'm just looking for someone who's had similar happen to them. I'm heartbroken and wish there was a conversation before they told me I needed to resign or be fired.