I have hyperthyroidism and graves disease for 5 years now. I take medication everyday. And over the years I really can feel it's effects. I'm much more easily triggered by small things or I get very anxious or anxiety when noticing small mood changes of my family or friends and I overthink it. If my friends come and rant to me about small inconveniences in their lives I don't easily shake it off my mind. Its like I absorb abit of how they feel even though I'm not witnessing what they are going through or am part of it. Basically I easily absorb others energy (good or bad).
It came to a point where when I feel like I'm at a dead end (feeling the symptoms of my hyperthyroidism, feeling like a tired meat sack that doesn't work properly + absorbing the after math of my friends ranting)etc. What I do is I give myself a hard tight slap. Privately. In my room. (Embarrassing, I know.) Or I tend to self comfort myself by swaying or rocking back and forth subconsciously.
I don't really share much about how I feel to my friends as I know they can't relate. My parents just tell me to keep thinking positively but sometimes I feel (why me? What did I do to deserve this disease) but I know that I still have a roof over my head and I'm abled body so I am still grateful for that. I'm 29years old and still have half my life ahead of me so I guess it's just going to be a long journey of this back and forth mental gymnastics. No one I know has this disease.
I don't smoke or binge eat to feel better. I do play steam games / mobile games. I try to exercise but I feel so tired still and the exercise routine just doesn't stick. So I'm trying to do very light yoga or short 10 mins slow exercises at home.
I've recently discovered this boxing rhythm game where you punch a device where you can stick on your wall with the beat of the music. (Maybe I should try that lol)
Curious if anyone feels like me.. sorry if I triggered anyone with this post. Just wanted to let out some steam 🥲