Set back
I had a set back earlier. I went to a phone store. While I was waiting for help I noticed one of the workers dig in the trash to get something out. This same person then proceeded to help me next, which included touching my phone. The trash looked to have only paper in it. I did ok ignoring it a bit at first, but once I got home I had to disinfectant my car, phone, keys, etc.. This person did not know I had this issue, I have no ill feelings against them. I am disappointed that I fell into my compulsions though. I go to therapy and am on medication. I have had great progress with both, but this set back got to me a bit. I will never give up on recovering from these obsessive thoughts. I have hope, and these thoughts will never take that away from me. Never give up, even if you have a set back. Get back up and try again.