u/GouacheEater

Hello! I started the gateway tapes about a month ago, and I don't think I've seen anyone posting about this. English is not my first language and I am writing this very sleepily so i apologize for any issues.

Okay so I've been practicing focus 10 for about a month now, I have done f12 as well but decided to deepen focus 10 for now.

What happens at first is quite generic, i start to feel relaxed, my limbs bend into weird shapes, I get those swirls of energy in my vision and all.

I am a diaphragm breather. After Bob counted to 10 i started to feel that rising like sensation but at the same time my chest was growing like a balloon. I let go of my chest, then my lungs filled with more and more air until there was no space left. My breathing morphed into very quick and small breaths, like my chest is always tight and i am taking and letting out minimal air.

it was intense and a little uncomfortable but i started to get that intense twitching around my face and pulsating sensation around my body, very vivid light ultramarine blue/cyan energy so I decided to not force myself to breathe out and my lungs do their thing to see what happens.

When re-entering the state i was kind of overthinking so not much happened. Then Bob started to count back to 1 and the exercise was over.

I get these a lot in f10 exercises lately, but the first time was i think when i tried the problem solving tape. It was accompanied by the feeling of expanding the size of the entire city over and over again.

Does anyone know why is this happening? By people's experiences i am guessing that this shouldn't really happen, or maybe i am handling it the wrong way?

Hello everyone,

I am having trouble with focus 10 right now, and I'd be grateful if you helped me.

So i discovered gateway tapes about 3 weeks ago and did my first tape about 2 weeks ago. And the first ever day i have done 3 tapes (i know it's too much but i was trying do something else and was very excited). The orientation in the morning, focus 10 intro and advanced in the evening.

The last two felt amazing and i might have overshot to focus 15 as the space looked 3d for a few seconds and it felt like i was speeding through a wormhole. After that day i listened to advanced f10 again to make sure i didn't get to it just because i overdosed the tapes. I didn't get the 3d wormhole but i know (or not) i got to focus 10 so moved onto other things in wave 1 to practice.

I know i could do f10 nicely because when i tried f12 for the first time I could get the effects easily and i have to say it was very intense. After that day in the morning i tried f12 again but without the tapes. it didn't feel as intense but i could still feel my awareness expanding. Also when i tried to "log roll" on exploration sleep, i tried to move with my physical body (genius i know) it felt extremely difficult and i know it's a success indicator for f10 as well.

But after reading a post i started overthinking the states and questioned if i have even got to f10 ever or not. I don't click out but i guess i have trouble completely relaxing my body sometimes.

now ever since last monday i think, I came back from wave 2 to focus 10 to study more now and I can't get to focus 10 even with the tapes.

My body gets very relaxed and i feel my limbs displaced and sometimes merged but i don't think i get that improved focus. (though i started to question if i ever got it at all). When i eventually get the falling asleep "inward" or "collapsing" sensation i start to get excited because "it's working" then snap back to being very relaxed. I'm still grateful I'm not snapping back to full wakefullness though.

I know i shouldn't care too much and get frustrated but...

What should I do? I thought about going back to f12 since it gives the "i can easily enter f10" message to my subconscious. I think the reason i could enter f12 in the first place was because i thought that i have already got used to the 10 state easily and there was no need to repeat wave 1 again.

But i also feel like i need to just stay where I am and keep practicing focus 10.

Also my body likes to take sudden deep breaths and i am usually hyper aware of my torso. I know breathing feels automatic in f10 so I'm not sure if i ever put it to sleep.

But in f12 i could still feel my breathing somehow? It felt like my awareness contained whole damn city. I don't remember how exactly it felt but it was VERY intense. The most intensity happened around my chest too, like i my breathing was very weird and it was like the air i suck in wasn't enough and the air I push out was also never enough.

I'm this post is very messy but i am very confused.

Thank you everyone for helping me 💖