I’m confused
I'm confused. I'm at a point in my life where everything seems gray, with only fleeting moments of sunshine. Don't get me wrong, I have friends I love, but I'm so lost. I don't know how to manifest. I know I've done it for much of my life, but the things I want just don't happen. I feel fat, my boyfriend doesn't even look at me, I don't know what to study, and everyone is pressuring me to choose. I want to manifest success, money, love, beauty—what most people ask for. I don't know why it's not working for me. I'm tired of the "don't look at 3D" and "if you can manifest, believe it" narrative. I just can't. It doesn't come naturally to me. I know there are laws that prove it, but why isn't it happening for me? I'm so sad, and right now I just want peace in my life. I want to feel fulfilled and in control of it. I want to know what to study, or get that role in that play I want. I want a boyfriend who loves me. I want to stop being fat and having a double chin. I want to be happy, but I feel so empty.