I had a dream about pachamama and i need help because I can’t stop thinking about it
I hope this is finding the right community- after dwelling on it I really can’t think of another perspective that would be fit to analyze this dream other than through a shamanistic lense.
I had a dream about pachamama. I am certain it was her as the name was referenced over and over again in my dream by myself and others. For reference, I’ve been to Peru and experienced the Andean belief system, it’s not something I’ve thought about in a long time and don’t practice spirituality as much as I should, so it’s not really something that would be normal for me to think or dream of. In my dream I was being guided through a series of corridors, it did not feel as if this was by choice but I do remember feeling like I wasn’t necessarily scared or denied the ability to leave, it just wasn’t a thought that occurred. At the end I was brought in front of pachamama. She was incredibly intimidating and powerful, but again, I wasn’t scared. It gets fuzzy here, we chatted about something but I can’t recall what, the dream returns to full clarity at the point that our conversation ended. with her hands outstretched towards me I remember there was an absolute need for me to give her my hands-like suddenly I was in a state of desperation for her help. The second our hands touched she instantaneously snapped into what I would describe as a shamanic chant in a low hymn that didn’t sound of this world. Immediately, it was like I could feel every photon in my body start to vibrate at a frequency higher than I could comprehend, everything about reality began to give way until the only thing I could see was a pair of glowing blue irises that belonged to pachamama in an otherwise black void. I quickly let go of the hands and backed away. At this point an overwhelming feeling consumed me. It was like I had the fear of god coursing through every vein. Just sheer terror. When I looked at her, she was older, she looked like a withered version of the spirit that I met when I entered. Although she looked a bit frightening at this point, I wasn’t inherently scared of her, just scared of the feeling I had just encountered. She kept her eyes on me as I got the feeling it was time to leave, no more words were spoken, I simply left.
I can not stop thinking about this experience. I have had some intense experiences but I genuinely can’t get this interaction out of my head. I guess I’m just looking for some insight about what this could mean in a spiritual sense and why this happened. It was one of the most visceral, lucid dreams I’ve ever had and I’m just not as spiritually educated as some. If you have anything to share or think anything of it, please leave advice or comments below. I have been having a spiritual blockage the last few years and just recently I feel a lot has been happening to pull me out of this, I could use the guidance.