u/Glittering-Bat-3717

Hello, I am 31 years old and struggling tremendously… I recently had a baby 6 months ago and that pregnancy was very difficult for me emotionally and mentally because it was not planned. I disassociated all throughout and even during birth because I couldn’t accept the fact that I was having another baby. My husband, on the other hand, was extremely happy and ended up getting upset at how upset I was when I found out. He always wanted 4 kids but neither of us planned for this one to happen. Now, 6 months pp I absolutely love my baby and have truly learned to embrace her BUT I’ve been late. My period has been very irregular and we’ve been very careful in order to avoid another pregnancy because we both agreed 4 was enough… I had started feeling off about 2 weeks ago and couldn’t pin point what it was so I took a test and it came out positive. My husband knows my period has been irregular and that I have not gotten it yet but doesn’t think pregnancy could be an option…Now I know and I have not told him because I don’t know how he’ll react and I’m honestly not ready to accept it yet. 5 kids was not in our plans, or my plans at least, and honestly part of me isn’t truly as upset as I was with my 4th, I’m more at peace with it now but don’t know how my husband will react. He carried a lot of guilt from my 4th pregnancy in seeing how much of a struggle it was and he didn’t want to put me through that again.