Lingering scare anxiety
Sol have started my period since I made myself overthink and convinced myself I was pregnant. I am on the pill but l've missed so many that I think I'm going to stop taking them all together. I have been on my period for almost a full week now, and it's been pretty regular haven't seen any clots. I don't know why but I've taken at least five pregnancy tests and I'm on my cycle but I still can't allow myself to trust either of them.
Since my scare which was some time in March, I just haven't been able to allow myself that I'm completely in the clear.
We've only used protection since then and I was taking the pill up until now. Recently I've been dealing with fluctuating weight and extreme bloating. My whole body has been out of wack and it's been stressing me out really bad. My weight will be 160 by the end of the day 165 and so forth but the bloat is so bad that my body looks like a letter D. I honestly don't know whats wrong with me and I don't know what I can do to get out of my mindset I'm in. If anyone has experienced this same thing it would help me a lot to navigate what to do with my headspace now. Thanks to anyone who listened.
Also the scare I had in march was due to us going unprotected once and he kept pulling out to check himself and keep checking to make sure we were good and we even stopped way before he felt like we was going to finish. Really stupid I know but we just wanted to try it out and we’re both overthinkers do I don’t know what we were thinking. that being said we haven't gonna unprotected since then and I just want some assurance as to how I can get over my lingering anxiety issues even with the multiple negative tests I’ve taken.