Need adviceon family problems
so my family is kinda fucked. we always argue. and my siblings have beef with each other and i have beef with my mom. i just hate this cause its always stressful. idk what to do. i always feel angry towards my mom. shes stupid and yea i call her a bitch causs she is one. but i feel sad when i call her that cause shes done a lot. our dad ran away and she does work and takes care of us. today, my sisters fought i ran and stopped i, in between them. then they went to their rooms, i went to go do garbage and i was crying silently, and i moved my face hiding it, i was trying to tie the bag fa st so i can go outside and cry, then my mom said ‘look now this one’s gonna start’ like hello???? she’s always bitchy holy i want to get closer to islam but i feel so filled with hate these days. idk what to do imma just avoid talking to them, yes we are a muslim household i need advice. i know mh outbursts are bad but holyyy my mother pisses me off its like she has no empathy. i would never leave islam just saying just feelimg low