u/Glass-Cheesecake-107

I recently got into college.And I used to like a girl in during my 12th and by the end of 12th I got a clarification from her and I left her.But she never leaves my head it's been almost a year,as a crush she is too good of a person.Even the letting down was so careful the way she did it.But then there is this girl from college she is a really close friend of mine.But idk if that's all actually is it just a friend.Because ik if I wanna fall in love it's with the other girl but in this friends case it's not like that but I get possesive when she sits with other people and I try to avoid her.And I know who she likes too, which she only has told me.So I really don't know do I have feelings for both?.In between all of these am overweight almost diabetes overweight I don't know what to do.Please Gimme an idea should I maintain distance from the friend before a heart break hits me.I don't wanna lose the friend as I might get too lost after that too.