u/Glad_Fuel306

Why do i feel so jealous, sick, self hating and angry when other lgbtq people have more freedom, good friends or heck, more money to buy more feminine outfits? I cant come out, and i have 0 irl lgbtq friends plus a whole heap of issues, hell, i see older people who post nsfw content of themself and get insanely jealous. I cant stop looking at things like its a challange to be the "best" lgbtq person. People can share expierences with me about getting to express themself freely or anything related to that in convos and it entirely ruins the mood. I dont want it to be this way, but i dont know what to do.

Why do i feel so jealous, sick, self hating and angry when other lgbtq people have more freedom, good friends or heck, more money to buy more feminine outfits? I cant come out, and i have 0 irl lgbtq friends plus a whole heap of issues, hell, i see older people who post nsfw content of themself and get insanely jealous. I cant stop looking at things like its a challange to be the "best" lgbtq person. People can share expierences with me about getting to express themself freely or anything related to that in convos and it entirely ruins the mood. I dont want it to be this way, but i dont know what to do.