I think it’s hemorrhoids, but I’m freaked out
I’ve had an external one for a long time. It never really goes away. It just shrinks or gets irritated. I’ve noticed in the past that there’s been a small amount of blood when I’ve wiped. It usually hurts pretty bad inside, feels like it’s ripping but until the past few days, I’ve never seen blood in the toilet. The first time was about 3 days ago, a few drops. Scared me. Yesterday, there was a lot of blood. The whole bowl wasn’t dark red or anything. It was bright red and obviously dripped from me. It just scared the shit out of me. I’m over here googling cancer. I can’t do that!
I started using Doctor Butler’s hem & fissure ointment & that gives some relief. I started eating benefiber chewable. I pooped a lot today. It was much softer & no blood! My poop looks like a normal color, no blood in it.
I’m just terrified. My health insurance lapsed because it’s so effing expensive & literally will cover nothing unless I meet an insane deductible. It was only catastrophic. And now I’m convinced I have cancer and this is catastrophic.